Fulfilling life in December.

I have a fulfilling life in December. What about you? :)

Sorry for didn't blogging for such a long period. OK, now i'm gonna share with you guys what i have done in December. :D

After the exam i went to KL with friends. Shopping, playing, eating and etc etc. :D Bought a lot of clothes there. Is such a tremendous different from the price compare with clothes in Penang. I was totally appalled when i saw the prices. LOL.

After came back from KL, i went to TUPO Leadership camp. It's really such a best experience for me. :)

Finished camp then went to Singapore to visit my sister. At there, i was busying shopping again with my friend. HAHA ! Gonna bankrupt soon. T T

After all, what i'm worrying about now is to have a part time job. :( Sigh. So much worries no matter is before exam, in the exam or after exam. :(

GOD BLESS ME.

Unforgettable incident ! D;

SUCH AN UNFORGETTABLE INCIDENT HAPPENED JUST NOW ! >.<

I was waiting a car that came out from the parking lot. The car reversed and i don't know whether he can't see me or what, he just straight BANG at my car ! What the..........

He said i'm the wrong one. F**K him la ! I have put signal light and was waiting there, i don't know whether his car got no sensor or what. -.- I was really appalled. Such a bad incident. Sigh.

This incident really make me bad mood. WHAT THE HELL !!!????

7 down and 3 to go !

Time flies ! 7 down and 3 to go ! SPM is going to be end soooooooooon ! :D

But i'm scare of my commerce and account so much. :X

Anyway, overall i got no comment about all the papers. I just wish that everything going to be ok. :))

GOD BLESS.

6 subjects to go.

Ummm. No comments about SPM. It just maths paper this year is kinda tricky. :( This papers have dissipate my confident to get A+ in maths. Sigh.

6 subjects to go. Mmmm. Stressful die. X.X

GOD BLESS ME !

SPM is going to start !

SPM is going to start tommorow !!!

All the best my friends and myself !

GOD BLESS !

SPM !

Sigh. SPM is just around corner. But i'm still fooling around. :X

GOD BLESS ME !

SPM is coming soon ! :(

OMG!!!!! 7 days to go for SPM !!!! X.X

It's really scary weeeeeyyyy ! :( I think most of my friends are preparing well for it. However, I'm still able to surfing net, on9, chatting and etc.

ARRRRRRRR !!!!! What's wrong with me !!!???

WAKE UP WINNIE GOH !!!!! >.<

Graduated !

Wohooo~! I have graduated ! :') But for me, after the most terrible SPM is only counted as officially graduated. =o=

Saturday 5 NOV was the day for all fifth former students. We attended the graduation ceremony. The day, i cried. Because there're so much memories in the school with my friends. :'( Especially when my friend sang “朋友”by 周华健. OMG ! She sang half way and cried. That time i was influenced by her and i cried too. :'(

Some of my friends will think that there is nothing to cry to, because they don't really have that feeling of after graduated is really hard to see each other. We would have our own path to go. :(

Anyway, I hope all my friends will have a better future and all the best for them and myself too.

BYE high school. :')

"初恋这件小事"

"初恋这件小事"

Hey ! Introduce you guys a nice thai love movie. Really nice. I watched with tears. :'( some parts are really touching. The main characters are so pretty and handsome. *screammmm* XDD

X.X

Today mood not that good. Don't know why. Feel like brain explosion. X.X

撑.

有时，会觉得自己一个人撑得好辛苦，每天都在孤独做战。这种感觉又有谁会懂？不知还能撑多久。希望还可以一至撑到找到对的人。

一切还是随缘吧。:)

God bless my mom.

Mom is going to have operations next week due to the tumor inside her uterus. :(

GOD BLESS !

Done my trial exam.

Umm. Just done my trial few weeks ago and finally got my results.

Unexpected, trial results are still ok. However, I'm started to feel scare because of my trial results are not bad and i scare of i would get a "so so" result in my SPM. Sigh. I just lost my confident as well. :(

Don't know why i just got no feeling toward SPM even it's just left about 25 days to go. WHY? I rather to feel nervous and scare. Because i know everyone has started their revisions. I'm still able to take a nap after school and only start my revision after that. I just so relax now. T T Feel like everything goes wrong. ;(

Anyway, just feel so down recently. GOD BLESS ME !

Future studies in local or oversea?

I wish to go Singapore for future studies. However, i scare the people there will look down on me because i come from Malaysia and i can't catch up their syllabus. Somemore their English is so strong. :(

I puzzle. I scare. D; I know i go there will have better education and opportunities. *sigh* Confusing ! Anyway, everything wait i had done my spm only see what to do and plan.

GOD BLESS ME !

Go or stay? D;

Trial comes to the end. :D

Heeeey Yooooo ! Finally, trial exam almost comes to the end. Still left Chinese paper. Not going to study it. Wahaha ! :D

Gonna bankrupt d. :S Spend on this and that. O.O

Out of the blue, feel like i mere lost the ability to chat with guys like last time. Maybe i do not communicate with guys for such a long period. :(

Trial start now ! D;

Trial start from today ! O.O It's so scaryyyyyyyyyyyyy ! T T

Anyway, GOD BLESS ME !

Sister is now at Singapore.

Sis is now at Singapore. I didn't send her to air port and sis don't want us to do so too. She afraid she will cry. Yea, im scare too. ;(

Hope she will be fine there. :)

Car test.

Car test next wednesday !! Nervous dieee. >.<

GOD BLESS ME.

Sorry, dad and mom.

Trial is coming soon ! T T What to do? ARRR ! Stress out !!!!! :(

Upset for the second test results. My classmates got so many Ass, yet im just get a few. ;( You know how the feeling feels like? It's suckx !

Get tongue lashed by dad because of hang out with friends until midnight. >.< Feel so sorry to my parents for waiting me until i back home. :( Haiz. I feel guilty. Tonnes of revisions couldn't finish but still able to go out.

If i have array, i will choose to kill myself. :( I indeed good-in-nothing girl seriously. I disappointed my parents i know. My dad try to give me what i want, yet i just disappointed my dad. Sorry dad. T T

Sigh.

GOD BLESS ME !

Disappointed.

Sigh. Disappointed with the add maths paper today. I can feel that my add maths's result is getting even worst. D; I don't know how to explain to my parents about my results. It's indeed suckx ! ;(

No eyes to see the rest of the papers.

GOD BLESS ME !

Stress !

ARRRRRR ! OMG !!!!! I can't finish my revision. HOW HOW HOW ?! T T

I don't know what to do with next week papers d. My history totally din't start yet. X.X

STRESSFUL !!!! D;

GOD BLESS ME.

Stressful ! D;

STRESSFUL !!!!

Bla bla bla..

Don't implore me to render you what you want, if you're unwilling to sacrifice.

Monthly test is coming soon. O.O

Public holiday tomorrow, yet monthly test is going to be started this Friday. O.O OMG ! It's so scary because i haven't assemble for it well. :'(

Busy with school magazine for the our class photos. I have got some handy ideas from my classmates. Sometimes really can't stand with those fussy people's attitude, they're so like to griped this and that but never think that if they're the one who doing this, what is their feeling. That will be damn FRUSTRATED i tell you. -.- It's quite cute actually, would be upload when i have done it. :D

Gonna have a short nap soon. After that gonna continue with my chinese MING JU. It's indeed killing me! D; Wish me good luck and GOD BLESS ME !

Busy life again. :(

Recently i'm busying with this and that again. :( Tired.

Next week onward will be having our monthly test. After monthly test will be our SPM trial. >.< Running out of time for me to assemble ! It's really appalled me when i looked at the calender. :O Seriously i just dicovered that next week will be the monthly test d. Totally forgot about this. *blur*

I indeed feel like time is really flying ! D; Still left about 3 months to go for SPM.

GOD BLESS ME !

End of July.

Time flies, It comes to end of July. OMG ! Trial is coming soon. D: Everytime when i see the calender, it's really terrified me. >.<

I done nothing in July. T T Everyone is doing their revision, yet i just gonna to start now. Sigh. :(

GOD BLESS ME !

Sister's going to Singapore. :'(

Sister decided to go Singapore to work. Urmm. Yea, the next destination for me is to go to Singapore too. :)

Yet, pity sister that she can merely come back to penang for a few days per year until she gets her PR over there. :( I will miss her so much anyway. :'(

:)

I have learnt a sentence today. :)

"Absence makes the heart fonder."

It's quite accurate anyhow. :)

Let go all these.

He had made up his minds to delete me from his Facebook. If he decided to do so, i got nothing to do with it too. Actually i know he will do it sooner or later. Anyway, I'm trying my best to let go of this. Hope i can do so.

Girl Generation. ♥

I addicted to Girl Generation recently. Awww ! They're awesome ! <3 Especially Tiffany !!! ;)

Yes, no doubt. She's Tiffany ! Awwww. <3

100+ days to go. D:

100+ days to go for SPM.

Hmm. :'( Until now im still skimming through the books but not really concentrate in it. Everyone is assembling for the trial exam. Yet, i'm still fooling around, hanging out with friends. Sigh. I think i should put on my thinking cap, thinking what i really need to do next.

So many things are running in my mind now. Urmm. Don't know what to do. Just let the time to dilute all the pain. I think time is the best medicine for me now.

D;

I just don't know why i can't let go. I thought i can be the one who will give up this relationship 1st. However, end up i'm just suffering like hell and he's so happy and enjoy his life with that girl. WHY i can't just act like nothing happen and go back to my life like last time? Because i love him more than he love me? Would him think of me? I just can admit, yea, i miss him lots. I really mean it. Yet, does he know all about this? He just so happy with that girl. Yea, i'm gonna accept this fact. His life without me is becoming much and much better. *sigh*

Hi JULY ! :D

Hi JULY. It's time to say Bye to JUNE. :)

New month, new hope. LOL !

25/06 Birthday pre-celebration. ;)

25.06 was my pre-celebration for 17th birthday. ;)

I was freaking busy for the food and other stuffs. Anyway, i do hope every single one may enjoy the party, don't you? :)

Here is some photo, it's not much as i'm so busy on the time.

And there was also a video specially for me. So bad i can't post it here as i don't have the video at my own pc. Lol.

Thanks guys. xoxo.

Photo shooting. :)

Photo shooting at toilet when there was a performance at Bayview Hotel. :D Hah !

Coffee after performance.

The day after we performed at Bayview Hotel for the Lions club event, going to gurney for a cup of coffee and chatting. ;)

Yea, that 6 of us ! :)

Simple but nicer. :D

Recently like to hang out with a simple t-shirt, a short pants and a bag. That is ! ;)

Yea, just like this. :D

Hustle and bustle life now. @@

Ish ! Guys, sorry for sooooooo long time didn't update my blog. :(

Recently really busy with school stuffs. >.< Assignments lots. Actually i got so many things want to share out here, but really busy with all the stuffs. >.<

Pre-celebration of my 17th birthday tomorrow. :D Urm, gonna be a busy day. @@ I swear i would upload those photos and update my blog when i'm free. Hope tomorrow everyone may has FUN ! Lets rock the party tomorrow ! ;D xoxo

Steamboat with friends.

Busy throughout the whole week. Urm. Busy for school activities, friends outing, etc etc.

The first day after the mid year holiday, we went to steamboat with friends at Xuan Sheng, Tanjung Tokong. It's not bad. :D


After that we went to gurney beach there chit-chatting about girls' topics. ;)

School reopen soon. ;(

Urm, school is going to reopen soon. ;( I'm still thinking what to do with my terrible results. How i explain to my parents about it. Sigh.

Tonight is so peaceful as i didn't hang out with friends or family. Urm. Maybe gonna ready myself for school reopen. Get ready to face my suckx result anyway. D;

Heard from my dance partner that maybe we have the chance to perform at Bayview hotel. Yea, i hope i do have this chance. :) Because this year is the last year for me to enjoy my secondary life, at least i decide to continue form 6.

Done my camp. ;)

I done my camp. :) Everything in camp went smoothly. Hope all my members enjoy it. Heh.

Form 5 members were quite crazy this year. xD Quite lots photos, so cant really upload all here. Sorry yea. >.<

Anyway, Thanks GOD.

Best dance ! :D

Finally, i done my dance competition.


I'm glad to say that we got THE BEST DANCE ! Wohoooooo ! *dance* Its worth for hardworking for so many days. :) I'm so happy to have such dance partners. Love ya ! We were really lost control when free dance as this would be the last time. :D


Dance look. ;)


Yea, that is us ! xoxo

Best dance partners ever. ;D

Tomorrow is the day ! I'm so nervous. =S



Hope that we can perform well. This might be the last time we partner for competition d. Hope we can enjoy the moment when we are in the stage. :)

Best partners ever. xoxo.

Good luck to us and GOD BLESS ME ! >.<

自尊

我可以放下自己的自尊去求一个人，可我得到了什么? 我换来的就只有心痛。

Bak Zhang. :D

Today was Dragon boat festival. :D Have you all eaten bak zhang?



Mom bought them this morning. :)

Hope you guys enjoy your day. ;)

Time flies ! :(

Urm, time flies ! It comes to June, mid year d. O.O

June...July...August...September ! September will be our trial exams d. T T My classmates started preparing now d. I'm still fooling around. @@ Sigh.

Birthday present, dance, red finger nail. :D

Wow ! Such a busy holidays. Sorry for din't update my blog.

Received a early birthday present from sista. Its a body mist. It's smell great anyway. :)

*i don't know why it can't rotate. Sorry yea.

I'm busying with dance practice as competition is coming soon. Competition will be at this coming Wednesday. :O Nervous die. :S Wish me good luck on that day.

* Took this when dance practise. ;) Just ignore my messy look anyway.

My sista and I went to shopping, I was so unlucky met him and that girl. WTH?! I was like suddenly don't know what to do. My heart just like cut by a knife. Its hurt seriously. D; Please don't let me meet him anymore GOD. Met him just will ruin my mood, makes me feel even more pain.

Just want to shoo away those bad memories. Come come, show you all i have red finger nail now ! :D I'm happy with it. *dance*

My class, 5P1. :D

This is our class 5P1. Took it when we were having extra class for science. :) There's some of them missed out. >.<

Anyway, the centre is our best science teacher. ;)

Outing with friends. :)

Finally, its holiday now ! :D

I was busying with dance practise until now only i can have some time to rest. ;( It kinda tired.

My friends and I went to New way yesterday. Hah ! We sang like crazy. Oppss ! We were not singing is shouting anyway. *laugh* New way is quite nice as we were having a salad buffet + main food + drink. Lol. Keep on eating eating and eating. XD

Now, its photo time ! :D

Have fun with them. xoxo.

Last paper tomorrow ! :)

Last paper tomorrow ! :D But i can't afford to finish my add maths revision. ;( Severely hate Integration and differentiation ! Its really killing me ! =x

All the best for all my friends ! GOOD LUCK ! GOD BLESS ME !

Last two days !

Last two papers ! Tomorrow accounts ! However, Im lost. =x Don't know what to revise. Its good or bad huh?

My brain now is blank like hell. =x Ok, don't want to think so much. Brush teeth and SLEEP !

GOOD LUCK to all my friends. GOD BLESS ME !

3 days to go ! :o

3days to go ! >.<

Tomorrow commerce paper. O.O I seem like giving up. Sigh. Its so much to revise laaaaaaa. ;(

Today mood was not that good also. Urm. Miss him. I really don't know why he treated me like that and i'm still missing him. WTH?! WAKE UP WINNIE GOH !

This year is really not a good year for those couples. Just knew that my friend broke up with her bf last few weeks. =O Everybody around me falling out of love. "Hey Cupid, Are you there to duty?" :( I hope you do Cupid. Sigh.

GOOD LUCK and GOD BLESS ME for tomorrow commerce paper !

Hope everything can be settle down.

Time flies ! It comes to last week for mid year exams. Tomorrow will be maths paper. After that will be commerce, accounts and add maths.

Add maths and commerce are quite lots to revise. I think i cant finish them on time. Sigh.

Mood really unstable recently. Maybe because of exams and him. The day he leave me onward, i have became like this. I also don't why, I cant control my emotions at all. ;(

Imma planning to have a photoshooting with my friend. Need to talk to the incharge person. Hopefully by this weekend after mid year exams. Actually, i'm not photogenic and my hair now is damn suckx ! Just feel like want to try out something different as i din't have photoshooting before. :)

Hope that my uniform 1 day trip will be ok. :( I don't want to disappointed my members. Sigh.

GOD BLESS ME ! GOOD LUCK !

History paper GONE ! D;

Erm. Today History paper is totally GONE ! Sad. D;

Tomorrow will be Science paper. This time not that confidence anymore. Sigh. Stressful. Teachers, parents, friends put too much of expectation on me. Haiz.

Hope tomorrow science paper gonna be ok. Good Luck ! GOD BLESS ME !

Can i have a erase button. I hope i do.

Just done my tuna sandwishes. That will be my breakfast tommorow. *Wheee :)

Can't finish my history revision. O.O Wondering what i'm going to write for the essay and structure huh? Objective at least i can have 4 choices to TING TONG TIANG. Sigh.

Today mood not that good actually. Sign in my facebook and saw his post. Its really like a knife cutting my heart. I do hope that i can have a erase button in my mind, erasing all the memories. Start a new life. Just let me forget everything about him just like i never know him before. D;

Wish me good luck for history paper tomorrow anyway. GOD BLESS ME !

Happy Wesak Day !

Today is Wesak day. Happy Wesak Day everyone ! :)

This is the photo that i have taken when i went to pray last nite.

After praying and went to Northen Beach Cafe with parents. Its kinda boring. >.< So i decided to go out with friends. LOL.

Erm. I don't know why my mood is not that good recently. Lots of UP and DOWN. Sigh. Everytime when it comes to revision, my mood definitely down like hell. D;

Moral paper tomorrow. Hmm, wish me good luck ! GOD BLESS ME ! :(

I miss him so much seriously.

Present from Hong Kong.

The presents that my sis bought for me from Hong Kong. *thanks sista so much* :)

BB cream and a cute lil lamp. :) xoxo~

Photossss. :)

*This is what i usually do when im bored ! XD I know im kinda swt. LOL !

Language paper ended !

Language paper just ended. Tomorrow is holiday but i got to stay home for revision. :(

Coming paper will be moral, history and science. WOW ! My enemy ever, HISTORY ! Don't even touch it yet. >.<



HAH ! This is what i usually do when im doing revision. XDD

Anyway, today english paper quite difficult. D; First time wrote narrative essay. Don't know whether is good or bad. I just feel like my grammer is totally shit. -.- This time sure tongue lashes by dad. Dad had already felt disappointed with my 1st test result for english. No eye to see d. I got a feeling like my mid year exams result will be drop like hell. Sigh. GOD BLESS ME ! I don't want to disappointed my parents.

Going to rest now, english tuition later. ;(

Mood become more and more worst.

Urm. English paper tomorrow ! OMG !! >.<

My mood become more and more worst. Everythings keep running im my mind while im doing revision. Can all these things just fuck off and let me concentrate on my studies? Haiz.

Sister saw him and the girl and asked me what happened. Sigh. My heart is like a glass that is broken and no longer can be stick back, although can stick back, it wont be perfect anymore.

2 weeks to go, but now im start sick. Sore throat, and my voice changed ! T T

History and perdagangan still haven't start revise, im going to die soon d. Sigh.

GOD BLESS ME ! Good luck. :(

Mid year going to be start on tomorrow ! D;

Ishhhh ! 1st test will be start tomorrow. >.<

Urmm, i had discovered somethings. Haiz. Ruin my mood. Hope time can dilute all the pain.

Wish all my friends and I good luck for the mid year exams. GOD BLESS ME ! :(

Mid year exams.

Guys ! Sorry for so long didn't update my blog. Because recenlty is busying with all the school stuff and mid year examinations.

Opsss ! Mid year examination is just around the corner ! >.< I'm lack of time to do revision. HOW ? T T Suddenly have a feeling, but i don't know how to describe it. SAD? FRUSTRATED? I have a weird feeling now. *sigh* Exams EXAM EXAM ! Ish ! Exam is coming soon but i'm still busying with the school activitites. What should i do? I can't really concentrate on my study too. This coming Thursday is the 1st day for mid year exams and Chinese will be the 1st paper. OMG ! I haven't start my Chinese revision AT ALL ! GOD BLESS ME ! I got no eye to see my results. :X A lot of my classmate had started their revision very early. This time i'm sure die ! D;

Today was mother's day. Urm, went to dinner with mom, dad, sista, and her bf. We went to Times Square "Gallery Of Food" for dinner. OMG ! The food there are suckx ! YUCKS ! No next time. -.-

Anyway, i will be busy for the exams i think. >.< Hopefully i can really have some times to rest after all the stuffs had done. I'M REALLY TIRED MAN ! @@

Good luck for all my friends for the coming mid year exams. GOD BLESS ME ! >.< xoxo.

Busy life, emo. ;(

Recently was busy with school's activities, homeworks and tuition. Tomorrow is parent's day. OMG ! Don't know what will my form teacher say about me. I think there should be nothing about my unfavourite things. LOL ! By the way, i failed my chinese paper. =x *embarrassed*

Today is 15 April. If we were still together, i think we are celebrating 1 year+1 month anniversary d. Unlucky, now we are just normal friend. Sigh. I just discovered that he liked a girl which 20 years old. I think i know who is it. My sense is always so accurate. :( I don't know what to do. Just hope he will find his happiness soon.

I joined my friends for the performance at CLHS's gathering. Erm. There're some problems occur. Hope all of us may have a pleasure time, because we're no longer have a chance to perform as we're going to graduate soon. ;( Hope everyone may present well on that day. *wink*

The 1st term exam has passed not so long time, mid year exams coming soon. O.O I think i can't finish my revision in this limited time. =O Lots of competitors in my class this year. Everyone is working hard for the exam. Stressful ! Haiz.

Education fair in my school.

The 16th day. This few days were busy with somethings so didn't update my blog. Its sad to said that , i FAIL my Chinese. ;( I got a bad result for my english too. Sigh. 1st test's result are suckx ! Arghhh !

There was a education fair in my school this morning and i went to get some info about the course that i interested in and i have met the consultant to get some ideas for the better collages or U. I have chosen PTPL and TARC. I also asked some opinion from my dad and he supported me to go for professional course in PTPL because it can be fully completed in Penang. I got a feel like going to TARC for my future study, i can really enjoy the University life over there.

One of the reason my dad doesn't support me to go to TARC is because after completed the 2 years 4 months diploma have to go to KL, the main campus to complete my advance diploma and of course same with ACCA, i can't fully complete my studied in Penang. My dad worried that i will become a bad girl after i go to KL. =.= My sis previously also planned to go to TARC, but after banned by my dad, she decided to take the Accountancy course in PTPL and continue the study in Penang and this happened to me too ! -.-

I just feel like maybe i should take the opportunity to go to outside study and learn to be more independent. I want to try how is the life over there. :(

By the way, i have to talk to my sis and asked for more opinions from her.

OK, its time to bed everyone. Feeling damn tired after the 2 tuition classes after school. Night. ;)

1st test has finished, went to shopping mall alone, steamboat, pub.

The 11th day. 1st test had finished. However, i still have a long journey and don't really feel happy at all. Yesterday, morning went to school and after that went to prangin mall alone and passed the cloth that i bought for him for the 1 year anniversary with a letter. Because i really don't know how to talk to him face to face. I scare i can't control myself. After i pass the shirt to him, he phoned me but i was at the basement, handphone got no line, after that only i receive his message. He asked me how to go and with who *i wonder why want to so care about me*, i just tell him that I'm alone. He finished work and came to find me. When i saw him, i just feel like want to hug him as tightly as i can. However, i didn't do so. I miss him like crazy. D; At night, my friends and I went to steamboat. My friend's friends asked whether want to follow them go to Voodoo(is a pub). =X 1st time went there. Nothing inside actually, a lot of CIKO PEK and HAM CHU SHAO. Yuckx! Don't really like there, there is too noisy for me, i prefer coffee bean or Starbucks still. No next time until after I'm 18 year old. Just now morning after wake up, i don't know why my mind suddenly like out of control, keep running those our memories. He became part and parcel of my life, at bedroom, he used to lay on my bed, i used to lay beside him, after had lunch or dinner at my home, i used to wash plate for him, i used to listen to his voice before bed, i used to listen to his joke when I'm down, i used to.......... He just like became a part of my life. Sigh. Tomorrow test paper will be given back i think. I got no eyes to see anyway. =X GOD BLESS !

Stressful.

The 8th day.

I went to see dentist just now. Erm. Spend about RM400+ for treatment. @@

Today papers was so SHIT ! Especially english paper, damn difficult. Feel like gonna die this time. I can't imagine how my result will be. Haiz.

Tomorrow is history, maths and science papers. >.< size="5">GOOD LUCK TO MY FRIENDS AND MYSELF. God Bless Me.

My teeth......Sigh

OMG ! My teeth have broken into half. T T I'm so scare now. Somemore the teeth is in front.

So bad i have to face eveything alone. I miss him so much. :'( Really, will him miss me too? Sigh.

Going to see dentist now. Wish me good luck and GOD BLESS ME ! :(

Hurt me deeply.

The 7th day.

Today's test was like shit. =o=
Add maths was lacked of time, Chinese was too difficult. Sign.

ARRR ! Everytime when im sitting on my bed for revision, i can't stop my mind from thinking the past. Everything had became part and parcel of my life. I used to on phone with you before went to bed, I used to said I LOVE YOU TOO before went to bed, I used to text you after i'd finished tuition, I used to "manja" to you, I used to text you again when you din't reply my message.

Now, Its the time for me to used to single life, used to the life without you.

Its so hurt when i asked him. "Are you still love me?" and he just answer me "Its not like last time that love you d." What i can say is I love him even more compare to last time. He just answer me "Sorry, i'd lost the feeling." I just feel like going to kill myself when i heard this, I can't stop my tears from dropping.

He tried to delete and block me from his facebook. I was so nervous when i can't find his facebook. He said he wants to disappear in my life. I just beg him not to do so, just leave some hope for me , in spite of i know there is no more hope between us. *cry*

Chat with a friend just now, i'd feel better a bit after chatting with friend.

I can't finish my revision for tomorrow test. Worried what would going to be test in English paper and Perdagangan.

GOD BLESS ME ! GOOD LUCK TO MYSELF.

Exam week.

The 6th day.

GOSH ! I can't finish my revision ! T T

1st test going to be started tomorrow. Sigh.

When i went back from school by bus, i went up the bus and i was stuck by the door. =o= Luckily the driver realise me, or else.....

Is time to bed. Good luck to my friends and I. GOD BLESS ME.

Lonely night.

The another lonely night. The 5th day.

Everyone has went out just left me alone at home. ;( Friend has just came to visit me. Thanks hoong. :')

I can't finish my revision before the test. OMG ! How? Especially history, i damn hate it !

I just can't stop thinking our memories. D: Can someone just take away my heart from my body? Sigh.

1 day left to 1st test. GOD BLESS ME ! ;(

School reopen.

Can't stop cried just now. Sigh.

Tomorrow gonna go back to school's life. I'd keep my bag, keep my messy table and etc for school reopen tomorrow. This few days can't even sleep well, insonmia, i think tonight will be the same. D; Don't have appetite to eat at all. Just lie my mom that i'm full, don't feel want to eat.

Here a photo to show how messy is my table. >.<

Opss. There is some technical problem. >.< *paiseh*

Btw, 1st test going to be start on Wednesday. Just wish me good luck, I dare not to see my result anymore.

GOD BLESS ME !

Can't concentrate.

I just went to gym with a friend this morning. Thanks lots for the hug anyway. :)

The 4th day.

I want to concentrate on my studies. However, i can't. Everything running in my mind and make me can't concentrate. I wish to go back to the past, is that possible? Sigh.

He told me. Despite we're not couple, but i will treat u as my gf. WTH is that?!

WINNIE GOH, WAKE UP ! You beg him for so many times, it mean he is no longer love you anymore.

GOD BLESS ME for the coming test. ;(

D:

Maybe i'm not really suitable to have a boyfriend?

Yea. My heart has broken for so many times. I'm still thinking he won't do that to me, because he is a good guy. I'M SEEMS TO BE SO WRONG ! He just did it.

He has changed a lot after he started to work. What he don't like me to do when i was working and he just did it to me. He said he tired to be in relationship, does he think that i'm also tired, but i just don't tell him, because i don't want this to happen.

I really don't know how to explain my feeling now. I'm so down and sad.

I can't deal with the pain. Sigh.

He decided to give up in this relationship. Cried whole night. I can't concentrate on my studies, i got no appetite, I'm so lost, I CANT DEAL WITH THE PAIN ! I can feel my heart is broken and bleeding. Tell me what to do please.

I just beg him, i don't want to be like that and he just said feel tired to be in relationship. I'm never begging someone for somethings, but he is the 1st and the only one.

I phoned him, i just wish to talk to him, and he told me don't phone him. Its really hurt. I really don't know what to do. Imma going to sit for SPM this year, but this happened to me. He gave me a reason and just leave me like that for suffering.

I just hope he will come back to me. Yet, it seems impossible.

Love game.

Love is just like a game. If you're a good player, you might win, if not, you will just lose and replace by someone else.

By the way, i know i'm not the good player.

Guys ! Im back ! :D

I'm back everyone ! ;D

It seems like i'd long long time din't blogging, i thought i wouldn't need to blogging anymore. Yet, i just feel that blog is my best friend ever, it's a friend that always listen to me when i'm sad, happy, excited or whatever. <3

Suddenly, i'd a feeling. Uhhh, yea. I'm sad and disappointed. D; Cried last night. What to say? What to do? First test is just around the corner. I totally can't concentrate on my studies. Arghh! Something really makes me freak out.
Hope everything gonna be ok, >.< GOD BLESS ME.