1st test has finished, went to shopping mall alone, steamboat, pub.

The 11th day. 1st test had finished. However, i still have a long journey and don't really feel happy at all. Yesterday, morning went to school and after that went to prangin mall alone and passed the cloth that i bought for him for the 1 year anniversary with a letter. Because i really don't know how to talk to him face to face. I scare i can't control myself. After i pass the shirt to him, he phoned me but i was at the basement, handphone got no line, after that only i receive his message. He asked me how to go and with who *i wonder why want to so care about me*, i just tell him that I'm alone. He finished work and came to find me. When i saw him, i just feel like want to hug him as tightly as i can. However, i didn't do so. I miss him like crazy. D; At night, my friends and I went to steamboat. My friend's friends asked whether want to follow them go to Voodoo(is a pub). =X 1st time went there. Nothing inside actually, a lot of CIKO PEK and HAM CHU SHAO. Yuckx! Don't really like there, there is too noisy for me, i prefer coffee bean or Starbucks still. No next time until after I'm 18 year old. Just now morning after wake up, i don't know why my mind suddenly like out of control, keep running those our memories. He became part and parcel of my life, at bedroom, he used to lay on my bed, i used to lay beside him, after had lunch or dinner at my home, i used to wash plate for him, i used to listen to his voice before bed, i used to listen to his joke when I'm down, i used to.......... He just like became a part of my life. Sigh. Tomorrow test paper will be given back i think. I got no eyes to see anyway. =X GOD BLESS !

Stressful.

The 8th day.

I went to see dentist just now. Erm. Spend about RM400+ for treatment. @@

Today papers was so SHIT ! Especially english paper, damn difficult. Feel like gonna die this time. I can't imagine how my result will be. Haiz.

Tomorrow is history, maths and science papers. >.< size="5">GOOD LUCK TO MY FRIENDS AND MYSELF. God Bless Me.

My teeth......Sigh

OMG ! My teeth have broken into half. T T I'm so scare now. Somemore the teeth is in front.

So bad i have to face eveything alone. I miss him so much. :'( Really, will him miss me too? Sigh.

Going to see dentist now. Wish me good luck and GOD BLESS ME ! :(

Hurt me deeply.

The 7th day.

Today's test was like shit. =o=
Add maths was lacked of time, Chinese was too difficult. Sign.

ARRR ! Everytime when im sitting on my bed for revision, i can't stop my mind from thinking the past. Everything had became part and parcel of my life. I used to on phone with you before went to bed, I used to said I LOVE YOU TOO before went to bed, I used to text you after i'd finished tuition, I used to "manja" to you, I used to text you again when you din't reply my message.

Now, Its the time for me to used to single life, used to the life without you.

Its so hurt when i asked him. "Are you still love me?" and he just answer me "Its not like last time that love you d." What i can say is I love him even more compare to last time. He just answer me "Sorry, i'd lost the feeling." I just feel like going to kill myself when i heard this, I can't stop my tears from dropping.

He tried to delete and block me from his facebook. I was so nervous when i can't find his facebook. He said he wants to disappear in my life. I just beg him not to do so, just leave some hope for me , in spite of i know there is no more hope between us. *cry*

Chat with a friend just now, i'd feel better a bit after chatting with friend.

I can't finish my revision for tomorrow test. Worried what would going to be test in English paper and Perdagangan.

GOD BLESS ME ! GOOD LUCK TO MYSELF.

Exam week.

The 6th day.

GOSH ! I can't finish my revision ! T T

1st test going to be started tomorrow. Sigh.

When i went back from school by bus, i went up the bus and i was stuck by the door. =o= Luckily the driver realise me, or else.....

Is time to bed. Good luck to my friends and I. GOD BLESS ME.

Lonely night.

The another lonely night. The 5th day.

Everyone has went out just left me alone at home. ;( Friend has just came to visit me. Thanks hoong. :')

I can't finish my revision before the test. OMG ! How? Especially history, i damn hate it !

I just can't stop thinking our memories. D: Can someone just take away my heart from my body? Sigh.

1 day left to 1st test. GOD BLESS ME ! ;(

School reopen.

Can't stop cried just now. Sigh.

Tomorrow gonna go back to school's life. I'd keep my bag, keep my messy table and etc for school reopen tomorrow. This few days can't even sleep well, insonmia, i think tonight will be the same. D; Don't have appetite to eat at all. Just lie my mom that i'm full, don't feel want to eat.

Here a photo to show how messy is my table. >.<

Opss. There is some technical problem. >.< *paiseh*

Btw, 1st test going to be start on Wednesday. Just wish me good luck, I dare not to see my result anymore.

GOD BLESS ME !

Can't concentrate.

I just went to gym with a friend this morning. Thanks lots for the hug anyway. :)

The 4th day.

I want to concentrate on my studies. However, i can't. Everything running in my mind and make me can't concentrate. I wish to go back to the past, is that possible? Sigh.

He told me. Despite we're not couple, but i will treat u as my gf. WTH is that?!

WINNIE GOH, WAKE UP ! You beg him for so many times, it mean he is no longer love you anymore.

GOD BLESS ME for the coming test. ;(

D:

Maybe i'm not really suitable to have a boyfriend?

Yea. My heart has broken for so many times. I'm still thinking he won't do that to me, because he is a good guy. I'M SEEMS TO BE SO WRONG ! He just did it.

He has changed a lot after he started to work. What he don't like me to do when i was working and he just did it to me. He said he tired to be in relationship, does he think that i'm also tired, but i just don't tell him, because i don't want this to happen.

I really don't know how to explain my feeling now. I'm so down and sad.

I can't deal with the pain. Sigh.

He decided to give up in this relationship. Cried whole night. I can't concentrate on my studies, i got no appetite, I'm so lost, I CANT DEAL WITH THE PAIN ! I can feel my heart is broken and bleeding. Tell me what to do please.

I just beg him, i don't want to be like that and he just said feel tired to be in relationship. I'm never begging someone for somethings, but he is the 1st and the only one.

I phoned him, i just wish to talk to him, and he told me don't phone him. Its really hurt. I really don't know what to do. Imma going to sit for SPM this year, but this happened to me. He gave me a reason and just leave me like that for suffering.

I just hope he will come back to me. Yet, it seems impossible.

Love game.

Love is just like a game. If you're a good player, you might win, if not, you will just lose and replace by someone else.

By the way, i know i'm not the good player.

Guys ! Im back ! :D

I'm back everyone ! ;D

It seems like i'd long long time din't blogging, i thought i wouldn't need to blogging anymore. Yet, i just feel that blog is my best friend ever, it's a friend that always listen to me when i'm sad, happy, excited or whatever. <3

Suddenly, i'd a feeling. Uhhh, yea. I'm sad and disappointed. D; Cried last night. What to say? What to do? First test is just around the corner. I totally can't concentrate on my studies. Arghh! Something really makes me freak out.
Hope everything gonna be ok, >.< GOD BLESS ME.